Day 120 Attached to an Outcome

The other day I was talking to a friend on the phone about, lets call it “Spiritual” Stuff. To me that mean talking about the Mind – Since it is the Mind you can not see and thus can be called spirit. Anyway, when we were finished talking I realized that I was exhausted. I ask myself “why are you so tired?” What came loud and clear was that “You are trying to “Convince and Convert.” I was like Oh Wow, yes. I saw that while I was talking to this person that the energy behind my words where actually wanting an outcome.

 I wanted her to see it my way, I wanted my words to have an impact, I was attached to an outcome as my started point. And then as I investigated this further is goes hand in hand with “wanting to be heard” as a way to be validated. I want validation for my thoughts, as I define my thoughts as Me. When I saw this realization it was like within my physical body that a balloon had deflated. In other words, I had not seen that my body was tense while talking because the starting point was that I wanted to convince instead of just talk. 

I decided to call her back and apologize. I told her what I saw, and she said –oh that did not feel that way to me – it seemed just like a discussion. I was like wow – so that is how I saw it within myself and that is why the conversations drain me, because my started point is that “I need you to hear me.”  This comes from a childhood experience that I have been doing a Mind Construct on with the Desteni DIP course. I will not get into that here.

So bottom line is, I thought that was cool to see that insight right after that occurrence And also see the effect it had on my body as exhaustion.

I am not saying that this habit is gone – as it is who I have lived as my whole life without even noticing! But I am now on the look out for it. The cool thing I realized is that this does not me I have to stop sharing insights with others, but just to stop the energy drain that I do to myself, by “wanting and outcome.” .

 

 



------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ I started doing the Art of Self Investigation in 1997. I learned this Art though what Desteni calls Writing to Freedom using Self forgiveness and Self Honesty. . There is a Free Course offered called Desteni I Process Lite - Beginning Steps to Self Discovery that assists one to learn how to write yourself to Freedom.

Day 108 Feeling Guilty Because of thinking “I don’t want to”

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From my last post I wrote that I was feeling guilty because I am still living many MCS excuses. Today I woke up feeling bummed – (here I am looking for the trigger point that started the I don’t want to do this – writing) then I caught myself going into I now feel guilty because I am thinking “I don’t want to do this.” This time I said to myself as corrective self talk – “Hey – You don’t have to go there with that guilt! Remember?” I was like oh yea – right! lol And of course all the other excuses that I mentioned from the previous post where spinning around like "what will others say?" / "what would others like to HEAR?" / "what can I write that others will like / respond to?" / "what can I write that makes me feel good?"
And the biggy is – I don’t want to do this because I have so much to do – which is not true! I mean I can make the time in most cases.

So the trigger point stared this morning, I woke up feeling overwhelmed and sad that we as humanity has not changed to love and support each other and life. Last I night I came up with – If ALL of US just said NO to Enslavement – It would be over – We would have peace On Earth. – Then I went over and over trying to think of how we could All just say this – We Do Not Allow Enslavement Anymore – I had visions of Military soldiers all over the world saying – NO – We will not fight anymore – It would be over! And instead of fighting – the soldiers would help with the securing of homes for everyone, aquiculture etc.
So I woke up bummed because how can we get to the brainwashed people to see we do not have to do what others tell us for there own personal agendas that do not support life.

So the trigger was feeling “overwhelmed”, bummed and sad, where in my backchat I was saying I just want to do nothing today – I want to sit and watch TV – so I don’t think about all of this.

So I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that feeling guilty is a valid reason to not want to engage in life. And now I see this does not have to be so.

I forgive myself that I have been accepting and allowing myself to engage in the feeling guilty program to stop being alive and use it to believe the things I want or have to do are hard for me – when in reality, that I see now – it is only the believe in guilt that I associated to –“things are hard to do when I feel like this!

I see now that it is only that thought of guilt and allowing myself to go with it that is the problem.
When I see that I am going into the guilt program, I breath and then stop the program backchat and just move – do something else but sit there spinning around in my mind with useless shit that does nothing but create emotional energy that feeds the mind.

I see and realize that all those thoughts I have as backchat like, when should I write, not now because… I don’t know how to say what I want in writing, so that others will understand… I then come to I don’t want to do this because of that – THEN I FEEL Guilt – then I don’t do because of the guilt. So what I am seeing is that – To just notice that backchat, it always comes – but to not allow myself to judge myself as guilt for having them. So Be IT.

I have been doing the Art of Self Investigation for 7 years now. I learned this Art though what Desteni calls Writing to Freedom using Self forgiveness and Self Honesty.

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Day 105 Don’t Tell Me What to Do

As I work on my Boss Woes Mind Constructs with the Desteni I Process – I have been re-seeing that I do

"CONSUMED By The Idea of Yourself"

already knew to do it. Thus my self importance as pride felt like it was being attacked. As I look back on my life I see that my pride was very important to me. It is really another layer of wanting to be liked. I also would not want people to do something for me that I could do – I wanted to show them that I could do it. Thus building up myself as pride.
Interesting I am a double Leo – The pride of the lion! Lol – It was important to me that others saw me as worthy. This is really cool to see how I was so attached to my pride. Where in it would cause many times a lot of “emotional” unnecessary suffering for me, though out my life, I did not see it as suffering so to speak – I just saw it as “that is the way it is.”

I have a memory of when I was around 13yrs old. I was outside in my back yard putting up a tent. The neighbor boy came over and wanted to help me. I said “No – I can do!” And I would not let him help. My mother was watching this through the window. After the neighbor boy left she called me into the house and said “Why didn’t you let him help? He was just wanting to hang out with you and play.” I was in a bit of a shock when she said that. What was going on in my mind was that I like him and I wanted him to like me so I wanted to show him how cool I was because I could put up the tent! I remember doing this to him many times. Like wanted to better than him, so he would think I was cool and like me. The thing is I was pushing him away! Lol! I would be so wrapped up in proving myself that I did not take into consideration the other person at all. Interesting enough, somehow I did get a lot of friends. But I see now, it was because I was always doing things for them, so they would think I was cool. I wanted the attention and to build up self esteem as pride.

So the suffering so to speak would be for example how I reacted to my boss when she told me what to do, which is in the previous post. I became angry with backchat thoughts like she does not see me as worthy, doesn’t she see how good I am, I became judgmental and resentful towards her, I blamed her for not being different towards me. Things are better now that I have seen this and understand that suffering only comes because we believe in our self importance to where we can see nothing else. I can now see her as she is just doing her job, just making sure things get done, where I do not take how she is or what she does personally. I just say okay. And that is that. Its over, I do not go home anymore with resentment. This is also affecting my other relationship – where I would take things said or done personally if they do not agree with me or see it my way. They have there own way to see things, where I do not have to take offence about it anymore. Drop the pride and be free!  Next post I will share some self forgiveness on this point.

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Day 103 Boss Woes Continued

Cover of Don Juan: the Sorcerer (audio CD)

Confronting The Petty Tyrant

Continuing from: Boss Woes "Next post I will share what I found out about myself and how I was able to get past these feelings and emotions - It has to do with: Judging Others is Protecting Self Importance.

As I was engaging in self frustration over how my boss was treating me I remembered the word "petty tyrant." This a tern Don Juan used from the Carlos Castaneda books. I  found two articles that I read - one was Confronting the Petty Tyrant, I think it is defiantly worth a read as it helped me see what was going on in regards to me reactions. And the other article called The Petty Tyrant



Here is what I noticed after reading some posts on petty tyrants which is what DonJuan called mean people (my words)


After I read those articles I changed my "perception" of how I saw her and me. The most prominent point Don Juan said that struck me was - A petty tyrant can only influence us because we have "Self Importance"

How to deal with your boss

Thing are better because I changed ( I dropped my self importance)


I did some research on petty tyrant – and found and then realizes that the reason one would have a reaction with them is because of the idea of Self Importance – meaning I would believe that my “pride was attacked” – thus I now do not accepted and allow this anymore within me. So I applied this going to work which is explained below

Other things I noticed

Seems she (boss) has been nicer to me lately but what I have seen within me is that she is a mirror to my moods. Thus if I was having a bad day, frustration with myself because I believe that I am not doing enough to get my website business going and struggling with wanting to do things that I think I should – then I go to work with that and thus I am already in a defensive mood – thus I take everything she does personally. These last two weeks I have been aware of my emotional tone when I go to work.

 I try to be aware of my backchat to want to blame her for not being how I think she should be and if I see her in a mood, instead to go into fear and judgment towards her, I am practicing being stable and if she does something that would of upset me in the past – I now let it go and realize it is not my job to change her and I look for was to be supportive for what she may be going through.

 I am also now doing this with my roommate – instead of become offended because I believed she was not treating me how I wanted her to or thought she should – which is what she was thinking about me – it is like I am swallowing my pride or I could say I am stopping the need to be right within my mind –and then I am able to see what needs to be done in the moment.

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Day 97 Not knowing where to start.

I have been not wanting to write – because when I think of others that will read this – it feels I will not be supportive to them. This doenst mean the Desteni group as they understand what it means to write to freedom. But others who might read it that do not as yet understand. So what does that mean for me – I fear prosecution by what other think. So see there I caught myself in a lie – I reason I say I think it wont be supportive is because what I really fear is prosecution as what others will think. And as I go down the rabbit hole with this – it is the fear of not being liked – and that fear leads to the fear of not being accepted. I am still dealing with these types of thoughts… I want to stop.

Not only this is the problem – what I have been doing is to think if I can work consistently and get my website business going – then I will have the time to devote to Desteni – the idea being – that the longer it takes to get the website to produce an income - the long it will be to have that income and my sources are running out. But what I am seeing today is that I have compromised myself by not blog writing at least every week… I am a compete mess – and it has not been supportive to me not to write. So I am deciding to day to make writing weekly a priority instead of my work – I was using the excuse of time – needed to make income fast – to the determent of writing which helps me stay in perspective.
Gee… writing is the time I have with MYSELF – I need that – or I get sucked into the matrix whorl wind. Unfortunately for me – I have been told this – to keep consistent with writing – but I am one who has to learn the “hard way” so to speak – I have to make my learning my own – meaning I do not trust hear say – I need to experience it myself to have a complete understanding within my being. But in away this is also a good thing, as we are told to question everything – which I have always done anyway.

But on the other hand – it is a shame that each one of us has to have first hand experience before we believe something. For example – the reason that we accepted and allow abuse to others, like allowing poverty to exist is because we have not experienced poverty for ourselves – so we do not see or care that it is a problem. We are so separated from each other – we see another human – and say “they” “them” – like they are not one of us….and thus there problems are not ours. Funny we do want others to help us when we think we need it – but we don’t see that we all – as a human race need to help each other…

And another thing I am seeing with my process is that I fear time – I fear not knowing how much time I should spend on each project that I need to do – I fear not getting it done – so I will cram and sometime work 18hrs straight to get something done – then I am burned out for a bit.
That’s it for then post- as I am seeing I can go on and on. So I will stop here for now. And try to make these into separate posts as I continue to rant my thoughts.


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Day 95 People and Porn or Sex on Crack

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What I have notice with people who watch a lot of porn is that they are not HERE. I mean when you talk to them, or try to communicate with them, it is like they have this haze in their eyes. They don’t really see you. It is like something is going on in the back of their minds distracting them from being present with you or with something they are doing. It is quite frustrating really. They are living in a fantasy world within their mind and miss out on real communication. Now this can also happen when one is distracted with worry or other issues, but they will usually talk about it. But when one is a porn watcher they really do not want to be disturbed out of their fantasy of picture presentations, and they think or want it to be real life. That is why there is so much divorce over porn use. I also think some feel guilty and thus project there anger towards others because of the conflict that watching porn can cause.

This is one static about Porn:

“At the 2003 meeting of the American Academy of Matrimonial Lawyers, a gathering of the nation’s divorce lawyers, attendees revealed that 58% of their divorces were a result of a spouse looking at excessive amounts of pornography online.”

I never liked Porn, I thought it degrading to both men and women. But there are even consequences for those who don’t watch it. For example I felt judged by others because I did not like it, feeling maybe there is something wrong with me? I became confused and even intimidate by sex because of how it was portrayed in Porn Videos. I know that today many kids are most likely made fun of it they don’t watch it. And people forget or choose not see that Porn is a money making industry, which will prey on anyone no matter who they hurt. They will glorify it to young men and women to make money. Instead of being taught how to really communicate and share intimacy with each other, children are now thinking that Porn is The Norm. They are thinking this is what sex is about. Porn is causing over stimulation resulting in a decrease of fulfillment. Like any addiction, you must have more and more, because your highs are harder to fulfill. 

You must see that these Porn actors are really going through; this is show in a video that was made by 2 Ex porn actors.
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And this is another problem that is happening as the results of Porn.
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Porn should be see for what it is, Sex on Crack – It is legally being sold, just like drugs to Kids and Adults and the goal is to get you hooked so they will keep making money from you. What is that saying? Anything for a buck, sorry about your luck.

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Day 94 Bernard Poolman - Living the Golden Rule

"The Golden Rule" mosaic (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

The other day I was searching the internet to find the Jesus passage that says “Do unto other as You would Have done Unto You,” and to my surprise I found out that this is called the Golden Rule or Silver Rules and that most every single religion states this Rule in one way or another! See this link
"THE SERMON ON THE MOUNT" The Golden Rule (Mt 7:12)

Why is this shock to me? Because now in this age we still have more than half the world who is suffering from poverty and or starvation, we still have wars that we say are to defend our freedom, but we know now it is about money/resources and control. We are taught to hate others that are not like us, we are taught to compete for self glorification and reward.
The list goes on how we have not as humans lived this rule.

Bernard lived as and showed us through living action what the Golden Rule means.
But if we take an honest look out into the world – Very few are living it – Not enough to make a difference. Why is that? Why such a simple principle, a simple rule that would make this world a place of support and caring for all life not be lived? This was Bernard’s mission, to find out why we have not changed, why have we not lived this rule that is taught by each religion. And what can we do about it.

If there was ever a man on earth that lived the Principles of the Golden Rule in the flesh it was Bernard Poolman. Do unto another as you would like done unto you. Simple words. We need to eat – thus make sure everyone has food, we need shelter from the elements, thus make sure everyone has a shelter, we need honest education that supports life on earth, thus make sure everyone has accesses to education. We need health education and care, thus make sure everyone has access to this. All of these things we want for ourselves –we must also want for one another. Living Income Guaranteed. He shared all the education and support he could for these thing along with all the investigation as to why we have not lived as this yet and what we can do to change this.

So Bernard then lived another proverb -”Give a man a fish and you feed him for a day, teach a man to fish and you feed him for life.” People who think they did not like Bernard or the Desteni message would say things like – what are you doing to help! Have you feed people with out money? All you are doing is posting stuff; you are not really doing anything about it. Well – then take this into consideration. Give a man a fish and he can eat for the day -Teach a man how to fish and he can eat forever. That is what Bernard did everyday.

Bernard showed Us, opportunities and ways that the world could fish, how we can take care of ourselves by supporting others, nature our planet, because with out consideration for the whole of life, we start to self destruct. –– He researched why have we not changed or evolved yet – why with the Golden Rule taught in every and each religion, we have not evolved to a species that supports life instead of destroying it. This is when he discovered the Mind Consciousness Systems. Now not many wanted to hear this part – because it shows that we have been accepting and allowing ourselves to be brainwashed to live life as self interest instead of common interest to such an extent that we are blinded to see the real truth. We have missed the Golden Rule – which is so simple – why are we not living it? I mean it is so simple – it makes perfect sense – to have a world of joy and peace where we love one another – But we are not doing this – We say, man can not change; this is mans nature to be greedy and seek self rewards no matter what the cost. So we have accepted this as our nature? Why? Because we are stuck in a paradigm belief system that supports separation instead of supporting what is best for all.

Bernard tirelessly spent his days to show us what the Golden Rule means and how we could practically live it as humans in this world. The Desteni group for 6 + years now have been working daily on ways that a new political and governmental foundation can be set up that would follow the Golden Rule Principles. Thus making a place where all can eat and support life. We start with looking at, and investigating practical living ways that we as humanity can do this. It is not about charity – charity only supports for a moment and keeps the enslavement going.

Bernard dedicated his life and walked the Internet to share what it means and what it will take to become and Be the LIVING words – DO UNTO OTHERS AS YOU WOULD LIKE DONE UNTO YOU. It is interesting that this is not taught as primary education. I mean if it were, we would not have the type of leaders that we have now. We would not have the Elite that own 99% of wealth, while others are slaves to support their habit. The short of it is, that we have accepted and allowed ourselves through and as parents to be brainwashed into living as self interest beings instead of common interest beings which we pass on to our children.

It took me 5 years to really even start to grasp what this actually means, the Golden Rule. I have heard it many times; it went in one ear and out the other, as I along with most humans are being programmed to fit into this world of competition to survive. I have Bernard, whom I like to call the Paradigm buster, to thank, who got get me to see this. To see and understand that we must work together as one to create a world that is best for all. To see and face ourselves for what we have been accepting and allowing. To use self forgiveness so we may move forward to create a world free of abuse and live in harmony with life.

People either live directively facing consequence, or they live waiting for things to happen to them before they make decisions. You have to decide who you are in every breath at the cutting edge of time. That determines, through accumulation, who you will be and who you may become. Bernard Poolman.

The shift will happen when WE SHIFT our thinking to first, one of Common Thinking instead of self self-glorification first.

With sincere Thanks and Gratitude to Bernard Poolman for showing us how to Stand Up For and Start to Put into Practical Living the Golden Rule.

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Day 93 God As LIFE

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I see God as Life – Thus we are given the gift of Life while here – But we are then responsible for the LIFE we Live – God/Life does not punish us – We just reap what we sow or what we accept and allow. Thus when we justify excuses for why there is poverty and abuse in the world – we are accepting and allowing this.

So we as the human species are facing consequences. If our actions were one of caring for all others as yourselves – there would be no abuse or starvation or poverty. Thus when we pray, it is not enough. It is a way to feel release from guilt for a moment or to maybe clear our heads, so we can see what to do – but God can not change things for the better, or the worst, we have to, we have free will. 

That is why there is abuse. Common sense would dictate that if we start to use our free will to create a world that is best for All of life – We would then end abuse and atrocities in this world. I would say God/Life is waiting for us to get it. What is stopping Us, but ourselves. 

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Day 92 Fear of Time = Procrastination

I am sharing my one of my Dip Lite assignments:

I woke up this morning actually dreaming about procrastination - I was trying to understand it and sort it out in my sleep or dream. What I am seeing is that my procrastination is linked to fear of being disappointed, or fear of the struggle to do something. It is interesting because I use to not be like this. I wanted to try and do most anything. But now I have this fear of it. Also what is coming up is time - I think something is going to take too much time to do, I am accepting and allowing myself to fear starting something because I have experienced from the past when I want to do something and then it takes way longer than I thought, and then I worry about other things i have to do - so I fear getting started. For example I wanted to change the oil in the Tractor lawn mower as I am taking care of the property while my landlord is gone. Now changing oil should take 15 min. But because I never changed the oil in this type of machine - I would have to research how - and I did, I had to find the right model and serial numbers - find the website - find instructions which took over and hour - then I had to find the right tools to get the plug out, ect.. So all in all it took about 1 1/2 to change the oil. Not a big deal - but something happened to me that I am just seeing as I get older - I use to like learning something new, and the challenge and wonderment of learning and doing new things, but now I am seeing the challenge as a chore, as something stressful to do, and thus I procrastinate. wow... It is like I have lost my excitement for life. I am becoming rigid, I am seeing moving in life as a chore instead of life itself. Shit! I better snap out of it! I am seeing set backs as accumulated disappointments, which lead me to want to procrastinate instead of being HERE as Life with life, with out judgment.

So within this point I see that I had a definition of time with the starting point of fear - Thus now, to redefine time as direction of life.

I forgive myself that I have been accepting and allowing myself to define the word time within the starting point of fear, instead to live time HERE as the direction of Life.

I forgive myself that I have been accepted and allowing myself to procrastinate because of fear of disappointment.
I forgive myself that I have been accepting and allowing myself to start to live as and believe that doing things are a struggle and a chore because I fear the time it will take to do them.

I forgive myself that I have been accepted and allowing myself to worry about time as a factor to live life!

I forgive myself that I have been accepting and allowing the idea of time/how long something will take and see it as stressful - thus I am relating time to equal stress!

I forgive myself that I have been accepting and allowing myself to see time as stressful. And within this I compromise myself by being in my mind imagining doing something as stressful because of the time it will take, instead to be HERE with Life and not time.

I forgive myself that somewhere along the line I must of heard that there is not enough time and thus I feared the idea of time - to instead of getting things done - I would fear the time - I would fear not getting it done "in time" thus within my mind I would stress about it and I would procrastinate starting something.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear disappointment because in the past something I would do did not work out the first or maybe the second time and that meant some thing’s will take more time, and I would see that as a disappointment because of my idea of time as stressful.. 

I now commit myself to see learn and understand that when I see myself starting to go into stress about doing something or getting something done, I understand that I had defined getting something done with the idea of fear of time. And thus I was living in my mind of fear and imagination of past and worry of the future within self judgment of getting something done, instead to be one, together with what I am doing as a tribute to and as life as to what is best for all as life. Thus I commit myself to change my definition of time as merely direction of and as life, and I commit myself to teach myself to be HERE as Breath as one with Life. 

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Day 91 Self Discovery – Why do we feel alone? Paranoia of feeling alone

We are the only species that do not work together for the good of the whole!

Every other life form on this planet works together for the survival of their species. We do NOT. We work towards our personal individual self fulfillment, self glorification and gratification – No wonder we feel alone. The consequences of this is destruction, which is becoming more and more evident in our world. We kill all species, including our own for self glorification and gratification.

We have been taught that in the eyes of God we are special – Even though many do not feel that. We have to keep reminding ourselves that we are special. So we can make sense of our lives. We have to go to gurus, self help seminars, spiritual channels, religions and churches that all tell us we are special and to remember that! Are we really that insecure???

I think our insecurity is because we have separated ourselves from each other so much that we feel completely alone. And then search for some sort of personal fulfillment. We want to believe we are special; we want to believe that we are better than what our world shows us. But what is really going on is; We feel alone and are insecure because we are a threat to ourselves.

Our motto in life is “How can I get ahead? Think about it – ahead of what? “Get ahead of the game” is a slogan. The game of what??? Wanting to win, wanting to be special. If you’re not ahead – you are not special.

We are so programmed that we accept this as normal behavior. We have accepted and allowed the idea that we must get ahead to be our life’s purpose- that we have no rules at all! All is fair in Love and War type of mentality. Where we get applauded for our cunningness, our lying and manipulation to get ahead of the game. Where we accept that killing others to get ahead is okay. We are killing our own species along with others to get ahead. No wonder we feel alone, we are taught that it is okay to me mean, lying and deceptive to get ahead.

What a shame. Really. I am ashamed of our species; I am ashamed of Us as a whole. We give money to all those gurus, self help seminars, spiritual channels, religions and churches, not to mention the money we spend on body building, gyms, face and body lifts, cosmetics, cloths so we can feel special, not to lose our specialness. And all of this that we pay for, is the reason we feel alone. These types of things have not helped us, only separated us further and further from life.

And if we are honest with ourselves, we are all afraid, even if we have all we desired, all the money to make our dreams come true – in our hearts we are still afraid. Why? Because in our hearts we do not trust our own species, we are threatened by our own self and behavior because we have accepted and allowed a dog eat dog world. No wonder we feel alone and afraid in our secret mind, the part we don’t talk about. We fear our own selves. This is the secret no one talks about – The secret to life.

Desteni is the only group that I know of that has told the truth, there are a few individuals who have tried, Jesus and some others, but we did not listen. We did not want to give up our specialness, we did not want to give up our addiction to the energy high of self gratification. We thought that was life – that feeling of self gratification at any cost.

We were too blind by the feeling to see the consequences. This is why Desteni is feared – because they tell the truth about us – no specialness, they do not make money by telling you that you are special and telling you all you need to do is love yourself. They tell you that if we do not change this believe/idea that we should be special above all else, that this idea is the exact thing that is causing all the abuse and suffering in this world. All the unfairness and inequality that is causing massive abuse in this world, our need to feel special has manifested as greed, slaughters, wars, unconcern for other life forms, rapes and abuse.

Well maybe this is how we evolve – how we learn about consequences, we have to experience our own suffering, our own destructive creations before we will consider what is best for the whole. And start to see and realize that what is best for the whole is best for us.

I think if we stared worked together for the good of the whole, we would not feel alone, we would have what we are all spiritually looking for – Unity.

Desteni is offering suggestions for solutions to work together as a whole. To stop our addiction to the idea of specialness that has destructive consequences: 

So if you are ready to give up your specialness and start to make a difference in our existence, start to create a species that is worthy of life - Join us, work together with us - We cant wait for God - God gives us life - what we do with it is up to us. 

Join Desteni the specialness busters, Get your WAKE UP CALL – get involved – The world will not change unless we change it Together. None are free until All are free.

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