Day 92 Fear of Time = Procrastination

I am sharing my one of my Dip Lite assignments:

I woke up this morning actually dreaming about procrastination - I was trying to understand it and sort it out in my sleep or dream. What I am seeing is that my procrastination is linked to fear of being disappointed, or fear of the struggle to do something. It is interesting because I use to not be like this. I wanted to try and do most anything. But now I have this fear of it. Also what is coming up is time - I think something is going to take too much time to do, I am accepting and allowing myself to fear starting something because I have experienced from the past when I want to do something and then it takes way longer than I thought, and then I worry about other things i have to do - so I fear getting started. For example I wanted to change the oil in the Tractor lawn mower as I am taking care of the property while my landlord is gone. Now changing oil should take 15 min. But because I never changed the oil in this type of machine - I would have to research how - and I did, I had to find the right model and serial numbers - find the website - find instructions which took over and hour - then I had to find the right tools to get the plug out, ect.. So all in all it took about 1 1/2 to change the oil. Not a big deal - but something happened to me that I am just seeing as I get older - I use to like learning something new, and the challenge and wonderment of learning and doing new things, but now I am seeing the challenge as a chore, as something stressful to do, and thus I procrastinate. wow... It is like I have lost my excitement for life. I am becoming rigid, I am seeing moving in life as a chore instead of life itself. Shit! I better snap out of it! I am seeing set backs as accumulated disappointments, which lead me to want to procrastinate instead of being HERE as Life with life, with out judgment.

So within this point I see that I had a definition of time with the starting point of fear - Thus now, to redefine time as direction of life.

I forgive myself that I have been accepting and allowing myself to define the word time within the starting point of fear, instead to live time HERE as the direction of Life.

I forgive myself that I have been accepted and allowing myself to procrastinate because of fear of disappointment.
I forgive myself that I have been accepting and allowing myself to start to live as and believe that doing things are a struggle and a chore because I fear the time it will take to do them.

I forgive myself that I have been accepted and allowing myself to worry about time as a factor to live life!

I forgive myself that I have been accepting and allowing the idea of time/how long something will take and see it as stressful - thus I am relating time to equal stress!

I forgive myself that I have been accepting and allowing myself to see time as stressful. And within this I compromise myself by being in my mind imagining doing something as stressful because of the time it will take, instead to be HERE with Life and not time.

I forgive myself that somewhere along the line I must of heard that there is not enough time and thus I feared the idea of time - to instead of getting things done - I would fear the time - I would fear not getting it done "in time" thus within my mind I would stress about it and I would procrastinate starting something.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear disappointment because in the past something I would do did not work out the first or maybe the second time and that meant some thing’s will take more time, and I would see that as a disappointment because of my idea of time as stressful.. 

I now commit myself to see learn and understand that when I see myself starting to go into stress about doing something or getting something done, I understand that I had defined getting something done with the idea of fear of time. And thus I was living in my mind of fear and imagination of past and worry of the future within self judgment of getting something done, instead to be one, together with what I am doing as a tribute to and as life as to what is best for all as life. Thus I commit myself to change my definition of time as merely direction of and as life, and I commit myself to teach myself to be HERE as Breath as one with Life. 

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Day 91 Self Discovery – Why do we feel alone? Paranoia of feeling alone

We are the only species that do not work together for the good of the whole!

Every other life form on this planet works together for the survival of their species. We do NOT. We work towards our personal individual self fulfillment, self glorification and gratification – No wonder we feel alone. The consequences of this is destruction, which is becoming more and more evident in our world. We kill all species, including our own for self glorification and gratification.

We have been taught that in the eyes of God we are special – Even though many do not feel that. We have to keep reminding ourselves that we are special. So we can make sense of our lives. We have to go to gurus, self help seminars, spiritual channels, religions and churches that all tell us we are special and to remember that! Are we really that insecure???

I think our insecurity is because we have separated ourselves from each other so much that we feel completely alone. And then search for some sort of personal fulfillment. We want to believe we are special; we want to believe that we are better than what our world shows us. But what is really going on is; We feel alone and are insecure because we are a threat to ourselves.

Our motto in life is “How can I get ahead? Think about it – ahead of what? “Get ahead of the game” is a slogan. The game of what??? Wanting to win, wanting to be special. If you’re not ahead – you are not special.

We are so programmed that we accept this as normal behavior. We have accepted and allowed the idea that we must get ahead to be our life’s purpose- that we have no rules at all! All is fair in Love and War type of mentality. Where we get applauded for our cunningness, our lying and manipulation to get ahead of the game. Where we accept that killing others to get ahead is okay. We are killing our own species along with others to get ahead. No wonder we feel alone, we are taught that it is okay to me mean, lying and deceptive to get ahead.

What a shame. Really. I am ashamed of our species; I am ashamed of Us as a whole. We give money to all those gurus, self help seminars, spiritual channels, religions and churches, not to mention the money we spend on body building, gyms, face and body lifts, cosmetics, cloths so we can feel special, not to lose our specialness. And all of this that we pay for, is the reason we feel alone. These types of things have not helped us, only separated us further and further from life.

And if we are honest with ourselves, we are all afraid, even if we have all we desired, all the money to make our dreams come true – in our hearts we are still afraid. Why? Because in our hearts we do not trust our own species, we are threatened by our own self and behavior because we have accepted and allowed a dog eat dog world. No wonder we feel alone and afraid in our secret mind, the part we don’t talk about. We fear our own selves. This is the secret no one talks about – The secret to life.

Desteni is the only group that I know of that has told the truth, there are a few individuals who have tried, Jesus and some others, but we did not listen. We did not want to give up our specialness, we did not want to give up our addiction to the energy high of self gratification. We thought that was life – that feeling of self gratification at any cost.

We were too blind by the feeling to see the consequences. This is why Desteni is feared – because they tell the truth about us – no specialness, they do not make money by telling you that you are special and telling you all you need to do is love yourself. They tell you that if we do not change this believe/idea that we should be special above all else, that this idea is the exact thing that is causing all the abuse and suffering in this world. All the unfairness and inequality that is causing massive abuse in this world, our need to feel special has manifested as greed, slaughters, wars, unconcern for other life forms, rapes and abuse.

Well maybe this is how we evolve – how we learn about consequences, we have to experience our own suffering, our own destructive creations before we will consider what is best for the whole. And start to see and realize that what is best for the whole is best for us.

I think if we stared worked together for the good of the whole, we would not feel alone, we would have what we are all spiritually looking for – Unity.

Desteni is offering suggestions for solutions to work together as a whole. To stop our addiction to the idea of specialness that has destructive consequences: 

So if you are ready to give up your specialness and start to make a difference in our existence, start to create a species that is worthy of life - Join us, work together with us - We cant wait for God - God gives us life - what we do with it is up to us. 

Join Desteni the specialness busters, Get your WAKE UP CALL – get involved – The world will not change unless we change it Together. None are free until All are free.

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Day 88 What is “What is best for All?”

The Equal Right of future generations to receive a living planet free of pollution, disease, hunger, violence and destruction so that life shall endure and thrive into eternity now and forever. 

Desteni shares the message of living a life that is Best for all Life. 

When I say that to someone I get a look… Like what the fuck does best for all mean? I mean I even ask that question at first. Like huh? It seems to be incomprehensible to people. And then I get the question “Who decides what is best for all?” And the question is not in a curious way or tone, but in a skeptical, cautious and fearful tone.  Like how can someone possibly KNOW WHAT IS BEST FOR ALL!

Thus I am seeing that we as a human race never ever considered the idea that something can be best for ALL. The argument is everyone is different, an individual you know, how can someone know what is best for them. What is best for them may not be best for me, type of fear. I mean it creates fear, this idea of doing something with the starting point of what is best for all of life.

And now that this point became clear to me, I think we need to define what, what best for all means. It has to have a definition because the idea of what is means to people now is one of fear. 

So I will then use and example to explain to them what is best for all. So as an example, I would say, when the USA goes to other countries and kills there people and steals their resources – ask is that best for all? No it is not – it is not best for those countries and their people or the land, it is only best for USA, but not really because killing others and making enemies is not best for anyone. Well that is one way I have explained it. Then I say, everyone will decide what is best for all – there will be an equal vote. A bill of rights and laws will be presented, that will protect all of life. And if all of life is happy and taken care of, so are you. So what would be the problem with that?

What fear would you have to that? If it is not best for all, then it would not be put to law.

But still people fear that, they fear that they will not be allowed to do something…One of the fears is “what will you do with people who do not want what is best for all?” Interesting isn’t it? It is like people do not want that rule/law – they don’t trust it!

So then I say it will be voted on as to what to do with those who do not want what is best for all. And some are still in fear. Why?

 People are afraid that having a world that supports what is best for all life will “Take Away Your Right as far as you’re concerned to Acquire Your Own Wealth and Happiness through Consciousness, through Conning Other People. So you’ll Blame the Truth as being a Con, the Truth as Negative, but the Truth is the Truth – You Cannot Change that.” (See more at: http://creationsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/#sthash.PrsKDi0N.dpuf)

The truth is that we if we do not share recourses equally with human and nature beings that we are destroying ourselves because we are living against life, not with it. We are taking parts of life and saying this is mine – I can do what I want – and there are consequences – billions are suffering and more to follow.

Could it be We do not trust the word BEST? We have been constantly told what is best for us! Our parents tell us, all the TV commercials and drug companies tells us what is “best” for us and most all of it are lies. No one can tell us what is best for us because usually, when told that it is best for us, the one who is telling you that, is because it is best for them.

 But Desteni uses the term “What is best for All” Not the phrase “what is best” but the phrase “What is best for ALL.”

With all said, I would say that maybe the word “best” might need to be replaced, as all we can see and hear is “what is best” and we don’t trust that, because we know it is deceptive because we do it and use it ourselves… What is fair for all life? No that won’t work; fair has way too many loop holes. It is like it was quoted above – we are taught from birth to think what is best for Us – not for all. So we only look out for ourselves and ignore the state of the world that we have created.

So  we need to get over our self interest fear of living as the starting point of what is best for all, the fear is a program instilled at birth by the sins of our fathers, who did not see or understand the consequences of this type of thinking.

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