Day:58 Mild to Moderate Bipolar Personality Pt2

Self Corrective Statements and Self Forgiveness 
In Reference to Part 1

When and if I start to get frustrated and in fear that I am doing all this work and I am not getting the desired results. (Note: I saw that the fear part is because the work that I am doing is so I can have an income from an online businesses, and if it does not work out – I don’t know how or what I am going to do to then get an income so I can survive on this planet.) I stop, take a pause and realize that this fear and frustration is coming from the fear of not making money to survive and the fear of time – I won’t make money in time to pay bills to survive. So I stop these fear thoughts as I see and realize that they do not support me in that I then accepted and allow myself to become possessed by my thoughts and not take or continue physical actions.

I forgive myself that I have been accepting and allowing myself to go into fear of not being able to make money when projects I am working on do not produce the desired results that I want and or expecting. And then within this I go into self pity and depression with the thoughts of “I want to quit.”

Then: I forgive myself that I have been accepting and allowing myself to follow an energetic high feeling of ecstasy when things to work out to the point of becoming proud of myself and thinking I am wonderful, but within this, all I am doing is saying that it is good when things work out and bad when they don’t, thus I am then judging myself as a downer/depression when things don’t work out. I am judging myself as “bad” when thing don’t work – thus I forgive myself that I have been accepted and allowing the feeling of an energetic high with polarity thoughts of “you did good” “you are awesome” to define who I am as good verses who I am as bad when things don’t work out.

Thus I forgive myself that I am accepting and allowing myself to use the fear of not making money when things don’t work out as an excuse to think/believe that I am bad and then thus go into self pity and depression instead of seeing and realizing that I am in a polarity swing of judging myself and what I am doing as good or bad instead to be present HERE without thinking and defining myself by the polarity thoughts.

When and if I see myself going into and energetic high or energetic low I stop and realize that these thoughts are not who I am and do not define who I am as good or bad. I breath and continue with my activities in and as the physical - because that is the only thing that is real.

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Day 35: Being Cheap

We have created a world where we do not value all of Life, nature and others as ourselves.

Thus within this creation emerged the manifestation of the MONEY SYSTEM where we values money instead of LIFE.

Money Consumes Us – We are losing our LIFE to MONEY – WE THINK MONEY GIVES US LIFE AND THUS HAVE MADE MONEY EQUAL TO = LIVING

I saw some backchat within myself when I did not want to pay for postage on a package because it was going to be heavy – thus costing me more money.

Then I though – ghee you are being cheap. I see how we always have to consider money within most anything we do! To send my brother a package – I have to consider money

It is not the idea that I am being cheap – or thinking cheap thoughts – But that I see that I value the paper- the money more than sending the package.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be born onto a planet where we value Money more than LIFE.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to send someone something because it cost money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I fear to spend money on certain things because I only have so much at a time – and that I therefore become cheap on stupid things at times

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be conditioned by money

I  forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in the idea that one has to be cheap because of our idea of money as the reason of whether or not we should give someone something as we value and fear lack of money for survival. 

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