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I have been trying to notice my thoughts when I feel that “I
am tired.” I wonder is this a legitimate tiredness, meaning do I need to rest
or am I wanting to get out of doing something. This really takes some self
honesty and many times I see that I just do not want to do something. And then
the mental battle comes up of – you should do it – and I start to get exhausted
by all these mental battles going on.. My astrology chart actually says I am prone to
laziness, so I was born with it.
I have seen that I am not lazy when it is something that I
want to do. But as I watch my thoughts – I am seeing mostly that tiredness is a
state of Mind. That I can change it. What I am struggling with though is
learning how not to use “energy” thoughts in my mind to pump me up, so to speak
to do the things I need to do to change and stop living as a programmed robot
of my designed astrology chart and become an actually living being designing a
life that is best for All.
So today I will share what I did that seemed to help. I
became overwhelmed
when I thought about writing for my blog- All the excuses can been seen on the
Procrastination blog, that come up every time I go to write. I had read Anna’s
blog about her struggles with the commitment to write a blog and in the end
she said – I just did it – after all the excuses the only thing left was to
just do it – and so I knew that it was my time – just do it.
Anyway as usual I became overwhelmed then really tired to
the point of almost getting sick. So I
laid down, closed my eyes and just focused on my body and allowed myself to
slowing breath relax, then I started doing self forgiveness on all the backchat
coming up. And then while in a relaxed state I started telling myself that
“ I love to write, I love to blog” and I started to actually feel it
emotionally or as a feeling of something that gave me fulfillment. I went to the opposite feeling of dread to
something that I would enjoy as fulfillment. Now I have heard that going to the
opposite polarity is not the solution. But I could not do it any other way at
this time. I had to trick my old thought program that was dread, doubt and fear
into enjoyment. After I feel the joy, I was not tired anymore and I got up and
started to write – the excuses where there a little bit but I just ignored them.
But really in the end – I knew I would be pleased with myself after writing,
because that does always happen when I finally do write, what I was getting
stuck in was the pattern of fear and
excuses before I start writing and that made me want to avoid it.
So as I read this over, I did have to use a thought of joy
instead of dread to get me to do the writing. So am I still using energy to get
things done? I think so, but my body does respond to joy as in doing something
fulfilling over the thought of dread for now.
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ I started doing the Art of Self Investigation in 1997. I learned this Art though what Desteni calls Writing to Freedom using Self forgiveness and Self Honesty. . There is a Free Course offered called Desteni I Process Lite - Beginning Steps to Self Discovery that assists one to learn how to write yourself to Freedom.
