I have just seen within me that that trigger today for this
anger was because I was denied acceptance to a cpa network that I wanted to
support me in m y business. This created fear and angry that now I will have to
work harder and find something else, thus I went into self pity and fear that I
now want to give up, which is what I have done many times before. Thus I am
accepting and allowing myself to believe in and use self pity to give up. I am accepting and allowing
the emotion of self pity to dictate my life, instead of me standing clear
within me and self directing myself.
I forgive myself that I am accepting and allowing myself to be frustrated because I have to do things to make money.
I forgive myself that I am accepting and allowing myself to be frustrated because I have to do things to make money.
I forgive myself that I am accepting and allowing myself to be annoyed with
the constant daily waking moments on how I can make money with an online
business.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
not like the idea and resist having to push myself to do the things I need to
do to make money online.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe
that I should not be having to do these things to make money, and that this is
robbing me from life - even though I do not even know what I would do in life
without not having to make money.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
become angry at life because I feel that we as humans must dedicate our lives
to making money to survive instead to be one with nature and ourselves.
I realize now and understand that it is not life I am angry
at but at ourselves for what we have accepted and allowed ourselves to exist
as.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
blame LIFE, thinking life is against us, instead to see and realize that it is
us as humans that do this to ourselves.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
become a product of money as self interest instead of a community that supports
all of life.
I see now and understand that my frustration is one of self
interest because I felt I should not have to do this. That I was special and dropped onto the wrong planet. Thus I had anger and blame at life, not seeing or understanding
that I had to change my very core of my being - what I had become and walk a
process of change.
Thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed
myself to allow the word “denied” to cause me to go into self pity, blame of
life and anger towards life, as I saw the word denied as a fear of not making
money. Denied, the fear of how will I survive now. It felt like - I have denied
you life. LOL. Thus triggered the anger and resistance to having to make money.
I see now that the word denied does not define who I am
unless I accepted and allow it to.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe
that the word denied defines who I am.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe
when the word denied is used towards me, that I see it used against me, thus
seeing it as a statement that life is against me and I, who I think I am is
kicked out, not liked, not approved of and then within that belief I go into
self pity.
Thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed
myself to believe and associate the word denied, to meaning I, my being, who
and what I think I am, is not worthy of life.
I now see and understand this word does not define me, who and what I think I am unless I accept and allow it to.
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