I forgive myself that I have been accepting and allowing
myself to think that maybe I can not do this process of standing up to the mind
because of my age.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
entertain the idea and excuse that because I am getting old that I should not
“do” anymore and just live as comfortably as I can because I am going to die
anyway, so what difference can I make.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
fear not having enough time and within that and because of that fear, that I am
not living, and thus the very idea that I am fearing - the fear itself is what
is stopping me from living.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fear
of time to direct me, and what I do within life, instead to be PRESANT HERE
with life. Thus the fear of time is keeping me living as a fear of the future,
thus meaning everything I do is in fear really because I do it for a future
instead to do it as Life as what is best for myself in the moment.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
live life for a future goal, thus not living as LIFE, but a picture
presentation of what I think life should be.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
actually want to use age as an excuse to give up in my backchat
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe
that age makes a difference in what one can do, though I have retaliated this
thought for many years, saying I would not be that way, as I got older I
started to accept and allow that this might be true. I can see now in my mind
pictures of people saying things like “wait until you get older, or wait until
you get my age” Those things scared me and made me mad at the same time. I feared getting older.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
fear getting older even thought I thought I was not. I finally faced the fear,
that I really had this fear and that what others were saying might be true.
Funny what you resist persist.
Now that I faced that I had this fear, I can forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe and fear that getting older
was not a good thing.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
judge getting older as a failure, thus I was living in the mind consciousness polarity
once again as life projected into the future as being good or bad.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
follow thoughts of fear and picture presentation of past or present pictures
that are of the mind, and thus I am living as picture presentation instead of
living HERE.
When and If I see myself following picture presentation that
lead to thoughts of fear of me in/as a future, I stop, I breathe, I bring
myself back to HERE as Life unencumbered by thoughts/ emotions and feeling.
cool Adele - same here :)thanks
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